Something happened to me that broke the hold of shame in me. Sometime ago, I attended a conference in the city of Ibadan. During the conference meeting, I stayed in my cousin's house. On one of the days after the conference meeting was over, I was pressed to purge but it was not so heavy. I decided to hold it in until I got home because I don't like using public toilets.
On my way home, the urge to use the toilet increased. I called the house keeper to inform the gate man to open the gate for me and chain their dog. His phone rang severally but he did not pick. I kept calling but my call was ignored. At this time, I was pressed but I could no longer hold it in. All I needed was an open door so that I can run to the toilet.
Eventually, I got to the gate, banged the gate heavily but got no response. The gate man was not at his duty post. The house keeper did not respond on time. When he responded, he said I should hold on so that he can chain the dog. That took forever. This is someone i've been calling severally who did not pick my call now wasting time.
When I discovered that I was almost messing up on my body and knowing no one in the estate would open their gate for me, shamelessly, I emptied my bowel in the gutter in front of the house not minding who was looking at me. At that point, I did not care about my status, I did not care If my picture would be on social media. That incident killed shame in my life because all I wanted was a relief and that was what I got. Glory be to God!
My friend, I learnt some lessons from that incident. It activated the shameless evangelistic passion in me again. The type I had several years back where I would preach anywhere and everywhere shamelessly. In public buses, I use to pray for the sick but it stopped.
Prior to that time, whenever I boarded public buses, the Holy Spirit would nudge me to preach but a strange shame and reluctance came over me. After that incident, I became shameless again in matters of evangelism. My bus evangelism started again.
If I could poo in broad day light to avoid messing up my body, then I should preach publicly without shame so that Satan will not mess up the eternal destinies of those for whom Jesus died.
Dearest, one thing you should never be ashamed about is the preaching and proclamation of Jesus in the public. Your faith in Jesus is not something to hide from friends and families. How can you live in a place for years and no one knows you are a believer?
You think you are playing safe by avoiding evangelism whereas you put your life at risk the more. Those we fail to win to Christ might become our nemesis tomorrow. If someone had preached to those armed robbers, they may not have become who they are today. Jesus could have transformed them. When we preach, we preserve our own lives too.
Before the day is over, make up your mind to share the goodnews with someone.
