Matthew 26: 39 And he went a little farther, and fell on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.
I love Jesus. He is our perfect example. He is the messiah. In his incarnation, he expressed how he felt to God without shame. Despite the fact that he is God, he didn't hesitate to tell his father the thoughts running through his mind when it was time to be crucified. He was destined to die a shameful death for the salvation of mankind. The bible called him the lamb that was slain before the foundation of the world, Rev 13:8. He knew about this but when he was faced with the reality of what was written about him in the books, he said, "...O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt."
In fact, he said to his disciples: "...My soul is exceeding sorrowful, even unto death: tarry ye here, and watch with me." Matthew 26:38 KJV. Hearing this statement from the mouth of Jesus, not many faith preachers of our day will call him a man of faith. We often misunderstand faith to mean not owning up about our weaknesses, pains and our feelings. Most times, we come into God's presence with a mask over our feelings because someone told us not to acknowledge those feelings as a sign of faith. We try to sing and dance like everyone, but something is eating us deep within.
Dearest, you cannot be faith-filled more than Jesus, yet, he told his father in heaven how he felt when he was praying in the garden of Gethsemane. He wanted the cup of suffering to pass over him because he already envisaged the pain. Sometimes ago, I passed through a tough challenge that made me cry twice. I poured my heart to God without shame. When you come into the presence of your heavenly father, forget your title, remove your mask and be real. Tell him how you feel just the way it is and ask for grace. "For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin." Hebrews 4:15 KJV
Pour your heart to him in prayer and tell him exactly how you feel.